I knew that sparring wasn't going to go well, but in some ways, possibly unnoticed by those watching, it did.
I can make every excuse in the book about my head guard, my gloves and the old chestnut of my disability, but I was simply out-gunned and out-manoeuvred. The instructor was correct in his observation that I needed to move more. All I proved, by going head on, was that I can still take a punch, as I did multiple times.
So, where did it go well? At a few points, dazed as I was, I focused on defence. I've recently developed a way of training good defence in solo training, and it seems to be working. When I focused on defence, I effortlessly batted each punch away - it was when I went for an attack that I came unstuck and got hit. In this way, I seem to be different from the others: they seem to go in and blindly try to knock each other into tomorrow, with the angle changes and footwork accounting for defence. Being less mobile, having one leg affected by illness, I rely on having a fast defence in a straight line.
So, I know my strengths; I know my weaknesses. What I don't know is what to do with this information. Fortunately, I know that, outside of the sparring sessions, things are different for me.